Swallowed Sentences

You know what you say in a day. The interesting part is what you swallow.

In the morning open a note on your phone and keep it open all day. Every time a sentence has already reached your throat and you swallowed it, write it down word for word, the way you wanted to say it, unsoftened. Add one word beside it: to whom. Do not judge yourself as you go, just record, even for small things like I am cold or I do not want to go there. In the evening sit down and read the whole list aloud, slowly. Notice how often the same name and the same unsaid sentence come back.

Who am I most silent around, and since when did that become normal?